Once it was different
For years and years
When my heart leaked
I needed to give love
To receive love
A long time ago, as a little boy, I was convinced I needed to save people. When people around me felt unhappy or sad, I did all I could to cheer them up. I felt loved when I succeeded. ‘Do you love me now’,? I would wonder. Yet, when they still felt unhappy, or worse still, when they took it out on me, I ended up feeling unhappy too.
Atoms, cells, blood, oxygen, particles, muscles, bones, sinews, heart, brains. All interconnected. Melting together into one living being. A human being. A wonderful creation. A wonder existing from connection. One.
There was a time in my life when I wanted to end it all. Every day I was haunted by questions: ‘Shall I jump off this bridge at last?’, and ‘What if I hit the accelerator now and chuck the wheel round?’. Fortunately, something deep inside withheld me. Something urged me to carry on.
Here I stand
My feet firmly grounded in the Earth
My Head carried by the Heavens of True Love